Oh My, My, My

Dear me, how did I get so behind on blogging?

Oh yes, that's right. Lack of sunlight, rainy days, school daily, live c.d. project, basketball. Yes, yes, I remember now.

My life is not a fast-paced life. I loathe busyness. I have lived the busy life, full of floor-pacing and drama, full of calendars and schedules. And then, somewhere along the way, I gave that up. It didn't happen overnight, but it happened nonetheless.

Our life is pretty enjoyable. We have lots of time together and we make certain to not overwhelm ourselves with too many additional obligations. Sure, there are things we all must do, but right now, at this stage of life, our children need lots of time from us, and lots of time is what they will get.

So when all of the sudden I found myself 'busy', it sent me spiraling. It started when school began in September. Homeschooling is a busy job, and it gets busier in some ways as children get older. When they are young, say, in elementary school, if they struggle with something, you drop it. Come back to it. Find a different way. Or just let it go altogether. When they are in high school, there is no just letting it go. This stuff counts. And all the little things that were optional in elementary school and junior high suddenly seem like long-ago freedoms.

We chose to homeschool, therefore, we have a huge obligation. Opportunity, yes, but obligation as well.

That started up every day and things just got added from there. Some short-term obligations (like helping with the live c.d.!), and some long-term (basketball). But for what it's worth, all sorts of new obligations thrown at me at once really whipped my tail.

So, that's all I have. No funny stories today about body parts or missing bras. No marriage advice, no pictures of great fall family outings (although there have been many!). In time, those things will return. But for now, I just wanted to let you know that I'm alright and that your computer is not broken and did not update! Thanks for your concern, though!