Today is the rehearsal and I'm shaking already. Apparently, it is for me only, not Jon, so I am not permitted to take him as my rock. I will be alone.
I don't want to be alone.
I thought about how different friends of mine would handle tonight and the wedding tomorrow. I know what Jon would do, he's already done it- he bakes cinnamon rolls for this guy and when rebuked again and again, he heads right up to him and gives him a rip-roaring smile AND hug. Ugh. He's so, so, so...not me. I think some of my friends who know the situation would say not to even go. I think crazy, holy Dan would go and genuinely not care what people thought.
But what will I do? What is right for me to do here? Today? Tomorrow? I'm working on that.
So, in an attempt to go to my happy place today, I looked through some pics that Ryan took. Why are Ryan's pics the best? Don't even tell him it's his camera. He gets real red about that one. But these pics make me smile and today, I need to be in my happy place as often as I can.
Wish I could stay there. I wish life could always be happy snapshots of life. I want to throw out the bad moments like we discard the blurry pictures or the ones that don't look just right. Okay, okay, so I'm moaning and complaining. You know you do it too.
Don't you????
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I'm not sure how I feel about Jon not being allowed to attend. Then again I don't know the history here.
That is a tough one...Usually people can bring their spouses to rehearsal can't they?? Ditto what Kelly said above. Just remember, the Lord is with you, mighty Warrior!
i never moan and complain. it's wrong, ya know. i think it's in the bible somewhere.:)
what did sonya end up wearing? i gave her a couple of dresses to try. OH and a strapless bra. i had to dig for that one too....
Julie,
She wore a sundress that I had given to her. And, you'll be happy to know that she used your bra. So intimate you two are.
Wellllllllll yea, I probably would go and genuinely not care what people thought. I've been known to do such things. I wouldn't wear a strapless bra though.
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